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Spiritual Practice
Review of Consciousness
DAILY EXAMEN
What is Review of Consciousness?
If it is true that God is at work in every detail of our lives, how do
we begin to recognize his action and our reaction?
At the end of the day, especially before going to sleep, the mind,
without any conscious effort on our part, tends to play back some of the events of the day
so vividly that if the day has been particularly eventful we can find it difficult to get
to sleep. We may find ourselves re-enacting a quarrel, thinking of the clever and cutting
things we might have said if we had been more quick-witted, and so on.
The Review of Consciousness is based on this natural tendency of the
mind. It can help us to be more aware of God's presence and action in our daily lives, and
to be more sensitive to where we are cooperating with God's grace and where we are
refusing it.
How do to a Review of Consciousness
Let your mind drift over the last 24 hours, refraining from any
self-judgment, whether of approval or disapproval, attending to and relishing only those
moments of the day for which you are grateful. Even the most harrowing day includes
some good moments, if only we take the trouble to look - it might be the sight of a
raindrop falling, or the fact that I can see at all. When people attempt this exercise,
they are usually surprised at the number and variety of good moments in the day which
otherwise would have been quickly forgotten - obscured, perhaps, by any painful experience
in the day. Having remembered the events for which you are grateful, thank and praise God
for them.
After thanksgiving, the next step is to recall your inner moods and
feelings, noting, if you can, what led you to them, but again refraining from any
self-judgment. Be with Christ as you look at these moods and beg him to show you the
attitudes, which underlie them. The important thing is not to analyze our experience, but
to contemplate it in Christ's presence and let him show us where we have let him be
in us, and where we have refused to let him be. Thank him for the times we have 'let his
glory through' and ask forgiveness for the times we have refused him entry. He never
refuses forgiveness. He knows our weakness far better than we do. All we have to do is
show it to him and he can transform our weakness into strength.
We can conclude with a short prayer, that also looks forward to the day
to come, and asks for God's help.
Lord, you know me better than I know myself.
Your Spirit pervades every moment of my life.
Thank you for the grace and love you shower on me.
Thank you for your constant, gentle invitation to let you into my life.
Forgive me for the times I have refused that invitation,
and closed myself off from you.
Help me in the day to come, to recognize your presence in my life,
to open myself to you, to let you work in me,
to your greater glory. Amen.
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